Known As | Man Fat (eats) Chow Hatched on | 15th September Gender | 'Technically' a male
Once you know me, you'll know that I'm the kind of guy that's very real. I'm open about almost every aspect of my life and l'm honest about my flaws - to the point that I'd share about the kind of stuff other people would feel uncomfortable revealing.
Yeah, I'm weird. I'm really "out there" and chances are you'll be challenged by me at some point in time lol not saying you'll be harassed - but l tend to shake people's perspective about life and themselves... (often inadvertently lol)
Pretty simple minded but complex to the core. I wouldn't say I'm "religious" but I'd say I'm a spiritually relational person. What that means is - l'm not here to tell you how to live your life. I wont judge you for the screwed up things you've done or what/who you are. I'm just interested in connecting with you - l want to hear your story & l want to know if you have that void in your heart - of pain, hurt, brokenness and resentment..the only void that can be filled by Jesus.
Sounds corny and stupid l know -but I believe God is our refuge & strength when we're in need (Psalms 46:1), I believe God can fill us with real joy & peace (Romans 15:13) when we're constantly trying to buy temporary imitations of it, I believe God is truly the only one that can protect us at our weakest (Psalm 41:1-3), bring healing and security (Jeremiah 33:6) but most of all ..God is the only one who will genuinely and unconditionally care for us (1 Peter 5:7), even though we think we don't need him in our lives. My challenge for you (if you've read this far) is this: ask questions and try to find out if what I'm saying is the real deal.
Seriously.
I want you to live your life however you want -but how do you know that God's not the answer if you've never really "truly" tried pursuing it?
One last thing to add before this section ends? Ask me questions. Challenge me. Teach me ..but please care for me too. Have patience in me - because whether l know you well or not, you do matter to me & l know there's a lot l can learn from you.
Interests:God.Music. Making friends laugh. Reading Christian books - authors such as Lee Strobel, Joshua Harris etc. Making voice overs with music in the background. Drawing comics. Painting oil-based canvas art. Photoshopping. Blogging. Listening to talks and sermons. Playing piano and guitar. Jasmine tea. Oolong tea. Peppermint tea. Just any kind of tea. Strawberry. Strawberry tea?Working out. Singing. Dancing. Being creative ;) Expertise:Planning. Time managing. Public speaking. training to-be Orthoptist. Organising and leading events. Drawing. Bible studies. Producing music. Giving Christian counseling. Sport. Being creative ;) Occupation:2nd Year B. Health Science stu
Feeling: Was feeling good but ... what the hell, why is my imac blocking out options on my xanga???!!!
Anyways. Yeah, l quit my job today after working for a year. To be honest lol lve wanted to quit for a long time now .. l just didnt like the working environment. The manager is freakin anal and was a complete ass. My pay was also extremely depressing. It was hard to work your best when you're being paid horrendously.
Thankfully, lm moving to another optical store that is paying me HEAPS more. During the interview, when l saw the units they were offering, the conversation went something like this;
"Okay Chris. We've heard about your background and experience .. and we are prepared to offer you ... this."
My reaction - HOLYFREAKINSEEEETWHATHTEFAARRRRRRR???? - mind you, l was trying to maintain my composure so tried every ounce of energy to hold in my excitement
"I know its not much so that's the STARTING income we can offer. If you want more .. then, give us the price!"
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Lol as so you can see, l definitely liked that manager better.
Right - anyways, the point of this blog wasnt to say that .. it was actually to say something amusing l just remembered today.
So l was about to sell a $500 pair of glasses today. But before l made the transaction - l said to myself "No, this is stupid. I'm not going to make such a big sale when l'm leaving."
I took a look at the customer - who didnt have private health insurance so they were paying everything out of pocket. And so l said "Sir - could l interest you in a discount for these frames?"
And he's like "Oh wow! Yeah, that would be good."
So l gave him the store's standard discount - which would only scratch off $30.
But then l look at the price again -$470.
And l thought to myself - still, not enough.
So l said "I'm not happy with that number, are you?" to the customer.
And he's like "I was more than happy to pay for $500 but ... sure ..."
So l said "I'm going to take off another .. 40, 50 .. no, wait ... $70 off!"
And by this point, the customers face changed from pure orgasmic excitement, to suspicion.
" ... wait wait .. wh-why are you doing this?"
lol and l stood there laughing - this was the first customer l'd encountered that didnt seem like he wanted more discounts.
Don’t we often fall into holes in our lives? Perhaps not literally a hole (hopefully) .. but to be in a state where we can’t get out of a negative circumstance ..to linger and make us feel uncomfortable, powerless ..lonely.
Sometimes, all it takes is just to talk to someone you trust. They may not be able to fix your situation or make everything better … but they could help you find the answer to do that yourself.
Support is a powerful tool - and more often than not, everyone will need it at some stage. Who knows, there might be someone who’s been what you’re going through, don’t be afraid to open up!
So I'm still overseas. Typing this up on my iPad lol pretty weird actually. It's been three weeks now that l've left Australia. Hmm doesn't really seem that long ago tbh, life in China is so fast paced ... I'm actually with a tour group here so they have the day planned out. Early starts and late finish.
The tour group is pretty full on. I just joined it along with my family three days ago as we left Hong Kong. The company chucks a hundred people together and guides everyone all over Shanghai. Of course, since we move around a lot, we stay in different hotels every night. The hotels are amazing, just beautiful..
But seriously, it's been soooo difficult for me to adapt because lm a very grounded, stable and consistent based type of person... All this moving around is spinning me off a bit. But alas, l guess this is a new experience lm learning from. The girls in the group are quite attractive lol lve had the pleasure to randomly have one on ones with some of them when the groups got split.
One on one's as in ...conversations lol
Anyways, learning a lot about myself and my family. My goodness, l never knew we could be such difficult people. The reason why we've never had much conflict at home was because we hardly saw each other ...but now that we're spending more time together every single day... I'm beginning to realize that we don't really understand each other at all.
This has gotten me reflecting and thinking quite a lot. Lol but yeah.. Won't put anything up until lve made more solid conclusions. Last thoughts- the air here is putrid. Smells like piss and fart everywhere. Of course, Facebook is blocked everywhere, not surprised really. People freely spit on the ground like some kind of sport ...and it's super duper cold! Today's temp was 4degrees Celsius lol
Man. Just looking back last year.. So much has changed ..It's like l've made massive shifts in what my lifestyle is, who my community of friends are and just who l am as an individual now.
I started my schedule 6 months ago. It's been half a year that I've had full-on packed weeks .. where everyday, l did something - whether it was work, uni, important events or hanging out with people. I've learned a lot about myself from this year. Especially the fact that l dont give myself space and time to rest. I'm an over-achieving perfectionist that's never satisfied with my accomplishments .. and when l see aspects of my life that aren't perfect, l will focus so much on it to the point that l blow it out of proportion and see everything as a massive problem...
This new year. I want to really explore what Jesus meant when he said "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Rest. Wow, why is that word so foreign to me? Why do l feel so uncomfortable just reading it? I want to challenge myself and actually tell myself to ENJOY the things I work so hard for .. to be satisfied about my achievements like they actually matter ..
Sigh. Just took a moment to think back all the things that's gone wrong last year. Stuff that brought a lot of hurt, pain and confusion ..so many things l did not intend to happen, broken bonds between people and that toxic feeling lingering in your heart.. but you know, damn ... l can't believe l tanked through it all. I love how for every experience that breaks me apart, Jesus just puts me back together even stronger.
LOL l just had a crazy idea. I'm going to list down the CRAZIEST things l did last year and remind how desensitized l am to stuff that's really extreme and out there ...
* Brought a homeless guy from church to have dinner on Christmas with a few of my friends * Snuck in a homeless kid that was kicked out of home to sleep at my place for the night * Volunteered for Salvation Army to prepare food for the homeless * Encouraged a girl who got raped to report it to the police * Counseled countless numbers of kids from topics like broken relationships to sexual abuse by their family members * Walked through a cemetery at midnight (lmao l had no idea what the hell l was doing here) * Brought my superly-athiest mum to church and now she drives up there herself on Sundays when she's not working
It's weird. Because people think Christians are boring .. that we're like a Ned Flanders from the Simpsons .. but looking at my list of the craziest things I've done - lt doesnt seem to really have that association lol What a year. Hope this year has more exciting stuff in stall :)
Psalms 138:3 "On the day I called, you answered me; my strength of soul you increased."
You know, it's funny. Time and time again ~ you always show me something amazing. When l feel like complete shit inside and when everything I've held on to crumbles, you always - ALWAYS make me fight harder. It's so weird. I've counseled so many people and helped them overcome worse things than me.. but for some reason, no amount of counseling from even my most experienced mentors could help me get back on my feet.
Until I personally called you ..and sought you out.
This year has been a period of pruning. There's been so many things that's been necessary to cut off. A lot of things that have broken down - not only with me but the people and environment around me too. I guess that's the beautiful thing about your work ~ you give me strength when I'm at my absolute weakest. So let's do this. I'm just completely going by your grace now lol
Show me what it means to carry my cross. Show me what it means to die to myself and feel a revival. I've tried walking my own path and that's only lead to disaster and self destruction. I want to follow you again. I want to give everything up for you. Amen.
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